Ingredients:
3 parts success
1 part arrogance
1 part empathy
Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little sadness if desired!
I adopted a cute lil' poison fetus
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Staring out the Window
by: Heather Kelso
Staring out the window
Wondering where you are today
I'm sitting in class
Lost in teh memory of our love or friendship
Is it love or merely a friendship
I'm truly confused on what to say to you
should i say that i love you
or should i say goodbye
sometimes i want to call and confess my true feelings
I'm merely afraid of loosing what we have
or finally seeing what
we never had.
I haven't written on this blog in a while and i'm sorry for that. so how is everyone out there in that big world. sorry for the last blog it was crazy. i'm not that insane i promise. Well congrads. Garton on your new kid. we have a lot of pregant people in my school 2 teachers and 2 students i think. there might be more that we just don't know about. lol well the counsler is pregant and a teacher that i'm not aloud to say her name b/c not everyone knows. then Lori the greatest girl in the world is pregant with a little boy. he's going to be my little tough guy. i'm excited. then Amanda is pregant and she is also married. 16 married and pregant. wow. i'm just plan ol' me. not much news. besides i got ISS yesterday for being disrespectful to mrs. barner. oh yeah we have a new student teacher his name is Mr. Allmon and he is an ass. he told me my powerpoint sucked and that i needed some help which pissed me off. Nicole thinks he is cute. he's a nice dresser and thats about it. he also has a nice car. i'm just starting to ramble on so i'm outta here.l8er folks.
I'm tired of the bulling, the name calling when will it all stop. i've had enough. yeah i'm so proud you can be an ass to someone. I'm not quite sure how to tell you this but if you don't leave me alone i'm going to kill you.
Scary right. how would you like to get that as an e-mail. well when you bully someone they are going to go after it. some will and some wont, but its the ones that do that get our attion. i get scared going to my school because that all everyone does is pick on someone. Someone is giong to shoot up that fucking school they are so rude to everyone. i'm just as rude. i know i need to stop and i have slowed down alot, but i still hurts to see school shootings. i'm so afraid that my school with get shot up like Clombine. some scary shit. well i'm done for the night.
well tomorrow is turkey day. i'm excited for stuffing. umm so so good. i love stuffing. we were going to have a big famliy dinner but yeah it got cancled b/c well i'm sick again. last weekend i got strep throat on friday and i had it tell yesterday and then today i got a double ear infection and so the doctor thinks i need to have some test ran on me..ponder ponder very very scary. i don't like doctors. ick ick. i'm so affraid of them. i thought about going shopping friday (christmas) but i don't know. i dont like being ran over by little ol' lady with carts. the whole time it kills me :confused: i don't find fun in that not anymore anyways. well i might go with a guy friend from school. i got a really sweet e-mail from my ex jake. i guess he is iraq now. :sad: kinda makes me sad but its good for him to grow up. well i'm outta here its 12 something and i'm tired i have alot of backing tomorrow for turkey day.. um stuffing.. l8er taters
Hey its me today. i'm listeing to a sad song and it makes me miss my granny even more. its call breaking me by johnny lang. well me and steph. are going out tomorrow. i guess its going to be fun. were going to go see a movie then eat some dinner and then spend the night at one or the others house. i've been bow hunting and i haven't gotten a damn thing it kinda pisses me off, but i guess that goes with it. well yesterday was veterans day and it made me miss my granny more more and more. Well i have a speacial tie to Veterans day b/c my grandpa on both sides and all my uncles on my dad side went into wars and now i have no one left. there all leaving me. why? i feel as if its to punish me but i guess time goes on and so do the people living in it. well enough of my sadness i need to be happy.. its a great day like every other one. another fake smile for another nonhappy day. well l8er tater
hey guys. what up? well my time hasn't been to damn great. i lost my grandma wednesday. so now i have no grandparents what so ever. i'm really bummed about that. it really wired. she was the funniest person i know. her obituraty is in the springfield news leader today.. her name was Elnor Keys Evans thats my granny. umm wow well its kinda hard writting this with out getting sad and up set. well i'm going to be so strong for her. that is was she was she was a strong lady and very hard headed. lol. i'm just like her in a since. well i wrote her a poem and this is how it goes..
umm well wow its been a very long time sorry i haven't written you. i've been busy with school and the other website but i hey i'm choosing write on both now. well i'm listenig to a new band called Benefit of a Doubt. the are great. Everyone should listen to them. i listen to BOAD everyday to make me happy. well my freind stephanie messed up here foot the same way i did this summer, so she is in some major pain. well i don't really seem much different than i was i'm still a dorky kid from a little hick town. well i'm really starting to like this guy named evan who plays in BOAD. i think its more than a crush. i bet he has a girlfriend and i doubt even if he didn't he would ever want to date me. look at me.. i'm feeling sorey for myself tonight. i didn't spell sorry wrong by the way its a different way of saying it and so its spelled different. well i think i'm going to go so i can shower, b/c i have to get up early in the morning..
P.S. IF SOMEONE IS LURKING OUTSIDE YOUR WINDOW IT ISN'T ME PROMISE I'M LOCKIN IN MY ROOM WONDERING WHAT YOUR UP TO THIS COLD NIGHT WHILE I LAY BROKEN, BROKEN FROM YOU AND YOUR HEART. SOMETHING I WONT EVER RECEIVE ON A SLIVER PALTTER FROM YOU YOUR SELF B/C YOUR IN LOVE WITH HER. THE OTHER GIRL YOUR IN LOVE WITH. just a little thing i came up with.
well i know its been a really long time since i've written but i have a new blog thing its www.xanga.com/simplegirl07 . i hope you all have a chance to view it leave me a comment or what not. well i'm trying to keep both up dated. so yeah. well i think i've written alot later. Heather
[b]hey ya'll its almost 11 p.m. and i'm really tired. i got off work at 6. i worked my ass of today. well i've got a new blog thing so feel free to visit it. its www.xanga.com/simplegirl07 well i hope you all check it out and tell me what you think. well i think i'm gonna reconsider my friendships with some people.
oh my gosh.. last night i had a dream about a friend of mine.. creepy b/c this is just a friend i have no emotions toward him. but it was that "we" had become really good friends and it all lead from there. kinda odd i thought, so does this dream have any meaning to me. i don't know to tell you the truth. i've never looked at this person this way but know i'm starting to find a different view of him. i really enjoy this person b/c they make me laugh so hard. this person hates my friends thinks they are all dumb. then why would i be having feelings for him. creepy but funny. well my headache is back and now i'm going. well later..[/b]
[b]well hello strangers. i'm back. hehehe. well man have i got some news.. where should i start. umm i'll start from the begining. my anut did have her baby it was a little boy named Chase Daniels. well Justin named him. then after that i've been working with my dad. ick but hey i get paid why not. i got invited to firefall and i turned it down so i'm a loser. what is fun about sitting in the sun sweating and stinkin' none at all. well then friday.. (sorry didn't check my mail earlier mrs. garton) was the finals to mephis bound. it kicked a**. the assint coach from smsu sat on my lap. it was funny. then i got a basketball players number so i was pimpin it up that night. i wish i had my friends there with me it would have been a blast. i danced and drank coke it sucked so bad. i totally wanted to drink, bc i was so bored. but i was a good kid then at 11 my sister wanted to come home so we left cartoons and went to braums and crused glenston it was so boring. so today i mowed and worked in the lil house to fix up what the a**holes left a mess. well i wrote a blog b/c i kinda wanted to tell you all whats up.. hey try this its cool! http://www.chinapaint.com/eng... well amber is missing her friend Char. bad. oh yeah my uncle Kirby that had cancer came down from FL. and so i saw him and his kids. i was happy. well i went to the mall and got some kind of flashy thing for my phone and it pisses me off b/c it don't work right. well i need to put my picture of us girls camping on my blog for you to see my friends. there great. today i'm kinda depressed b/c well i'm at home alone. tonight was the solo comption but my dad would let me go b/c it was at bumsteads and i'm really missing my ol' man.. and my doggie. :cry: :cry: :cry: but i guess i'll get over :? :? i hope that i'll feel better tomorrow. oh i for got my dad will be turning 53 sunday crazy. i mean he is old but i love him. he cracks me up and he knows it. well i've written way to much to you all. well i guess i'm going to go. wait. :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: question 1. why do you fall for the wrong people that are nothing but crap heads. 2. whats with the freaking world. cutting peoples damn heads off what the fuck. and we contiune letting are people get killed. when is it enough. is it going to have to be the pres. daughter before he finaly sees oh yeah there are too many solders and us citizens dieing in that fucking hell hole. why must they day for the people who don't give a fuck? sorry for the bad words but i don't understand why? well i'm out.. [i][u][b]L8ER TATER, Heather[/b][/u][/i] aka attie[/b]
hey.. how are you guys? i'm doing ok. well my anut is going to be having her baby friday, sometime. they induce her labor at 9 in the morning. i doubt my dad will let me go but i'm going to e-mail my anut carol and see if she can bring me home. that is if she doesn't have to work. well June 18th is the finals for mephis bound. i'm hoping that Mrs. Garton will come to cartoons. hey if you can bring Joshua. :wink: naw i'm joking. well my mom and dad are fighting over some very stupid shit. well i found out that my cousin Amee has a blog.. hey girl sup? well i think i'm going to cut it short.
well my house has been sad for 2 days. burno died yesterday. (05-27-04) i miss him so bad.. he was my buddy at night he slept with me in my bed and would wine when i would try to roll over. he wasn't even a year old. amber is taking it the hardest. she is all up set and i hope that she is ok. i told dad that we needed to get another one. he said no more pets, but i know we will get one or 2. oh well. well my good news is my best friend is coming to visit me. he's coming in either today or tomorrow. he will stay at my cousin's his brother. i'm so happy. i got started drinking my orange juice again. its good.. ummm. you all need to drink orange juice. it good for the body! :D i'm just a nerd. well i kinda wish that i could start my life over again and make it to where i can have my self-acceptance. well i don't really care anymore what people think of me i have the one and only person who means anything. his name is Jason.. my girs from school know who i'm talkin about. i'm just so happy to find someone that likes me for me not for what i have. if you get my drift. well my uncle mark is rehooking up with some chick he met at my house at one of our cook outs. umm. smoked ham and turkey, salmon, ribs. man my dad is a great cook. well i think i'm doing better in my depression. i find myself happier and there is no way i would when i was going to school it annyoes me becasue well lets see i got there for 7 hours a day and i don't see anyone new. i wish i attended a bigger school for a while so that i can say i don't know everyone in my class. my dad had 700 people in his graduating class and he knew some of them not all and i kinda wish we had that it would be a great new thing i think, but hey what does my thought mean at this hell hole i attend. i don't know not a lot. i saw Madison the other day and i thought man i wish i had a kid, but then again i don't becasue i wouldn't be able to go out and party i would be confind to home and thats not what ii want at all. well i'm kinda blessed because i have all the babies around to take care of and hold them. i can call them mine and then it makes me happy knowing i have them. well i think i've writtien enough. later tater. Heather(aka Attie)
well its been a while. its me kelso i'm back. oh yeah.. well its almost 10 p.m. 7 or 8 minutes till its 10.. well i'm kinda sad today, but i bet it'll be ok. well i have poison ivy from when i went camping with Kayla and friends. i got it on my face it sucks. i went home wednesday and then turned around and was on the way to kaylas and dad got the mail and i got a letter from the college and i was all why are they bothering me, by telling me that i'm not getting accepted but i was wrong i was.. i'm so happy. there is only 2 problems.. 1 i'm going to be alone none of my friends with me. 2 i wont have a computer to stay in touch with my man. i'm kinda sad.. but hey i have a cell. its all good. i'm really nervous. Julie Elders told me that she loved me and that i will make them very happy, becuase only 25 students out of the state or Missouri and guess what i'm one of them. well i guess it'll be ok. my mom is on strike. i guess its ok my folks are pissing me off, b/c on minute they hate each other and next they are all smoochie and shit. well my friend Jeff is graduating tomorrow. he's from kickapoo i'm happy for him, but i'm pissed because he treats his dad like shit. so does Jacob Elders. Jacob passed his G.E.D. classes last week or so. i wasn't allowed to go, becasue i think his dad didn't want me starting crap with his son, b/c he knows i will. well change of subject.. i'm kinda starting to ramble on. oh friday i went to work memphis bound friday night and this old man was hitting on me.. i was like well why don't you go and talk to my dad.. i was kinda creeped. oh yeah i danced the night away with Jody Cottongim, Nathen Melton & Tara Melton, Stoney & Jennifer Cottongim. it was so much dang fun. i got alot of complments on how i'm so sweet and have a great smile. i got free drinks from the bar tender.. he was cute it was so much fun. i get to do it again in June then again in september. oh yeah a great time for me.. i'm loving it up. oh my sisters cat bruno is dying. i'm really kinda sad though most of the time i hate that damn cat. well i'm going to go, before the storm moves in and jacks up my computer. i'm outta here.. later taters [u][b]Webster County Choopers Specialist,[/b][/u] Heather Lynne :D
well its 9:04 the 10th of May and i was supposed to find out if i got accetpted to the college at central methdosit and well i never got a call. so i guess i'm a freaking loser, but my good buddy Melissa http://melissa.tblog.com talked to me and made feel better and now i'm talkin to my babe.. and i'm so happy. well you all know about Jake (well i better make sure i put ELDERs so you don't think its medlock amanda's boyfriend) is still calling me.. i don't need him or his shit. i guess i should be mad at myself for every letting him into my life. damn why do i fall for the jerks? well i don't think Jason is a jerk. well for some reason i feel that my friends don't want involde in stuff that they do for ex. dinner theather. which is tomorrow. we had a skit and well they cancled it. so i kinda figured they dont' like me its cool though. i guess i get left out of alot of stuff but hey thats cool i just go out and do something. well i guess you don't want to hear about my stupid problems but guess what i'm going to tell them anyways. so if you don't like so far then LEAVE!! how is that...now i'm not asking you to stay. do what you want. well i think i'm going to get so freaking drunk staurday, becasue i'm hating life and abot 92% of the people in it. but there are the few that i don't ever want to hurt. oh my gosh i saw a snake in the chicken house ewww. i hate snakes ick.. i had to go get my dad.. i love him he makes me mad though he punched my freakin sunburn and i cryed like a dang baby.. it hurt so bad. i'll have to get a picture of my dad and me and you can tell where i come from.. my smart ass attuide and temper is from him. we are so much alike its not even funny. well i'm going to go. i hope you all have a great life. i miss mine. well i'm outta herr. oh question 1.) why do you feel like the world is closing in on you and its really not? 2) why do you think that your problems are so much more than another person? do we not remember the kids that have cancer or the parents.. i guess we let that kinda slip our minds. umm i bet that i will cause some problems. [b]later tater, Heather [u][i]*Webster County Chopper Specialist*[/[/i][/u]b]
well its the 27 of April its about 8:16p.m. well i found out that my dads friend is having to travel to minnosota and i'm really sad... i'm going to miss him alot. were having fish fry for him either friday night or saturday night. i'm excited about the fish part. well i'm planing on going to the YMCA in springfield saturday night @ 9:30p.m.-5:15a.m. thats along to be awake but all day saturday.. ahh.. well i kinda wish that my family wasn't falling apart at this time. i mean my whole f0c0i0n0 family is going nuts. my anut and uncle are getting a divorce. 18 damn years together, 3 kids, 4 grand kids and one on the way. one day you wake and tell your wife i've never loved you for 18 years i'm just tired of you.. what the fuck is that. i mean 18 years. well according to my mom and dad its not any of my bunisses..well ok then why tell me. i could of been happy not knowing. well i have no idea if my grandmother is dead or what my mom wont tell me or anything. well i'm excited to know that Jamie and Chad are having their 1st kid.. oh crap that means Chad has to grow up. hehe.. sucker. well i seriously think i have some problems.. to many to talk about. i've tried the whole counsling thing just got pissed and tried to punch the lady in the face so.. yeah it kinda sucked. i have a major anger problem. well a new flash for everone i [u][b]DO NOT[/b][/u] like the f-ing student teacher so so talkin shit about me! and the damn letter was just a damn JOKE SO GROW UP! i'm also so tired of dumb people, man i really wish killing was legal cause let me tell you they would be dead. well i would have all long called this person my friend but know i kinda feel like me gut feeling wasn't a lie. i mean i love this person i have noticed how much i like them in the few days in whiched we've talked. well i kinda wished that well i forgot now. (stupid song) well i guess i'm tired of writting and just going to say hey yall.. questions 1.) if you've found that the one person you truely like is more than likly going for another person what are to do? 2.) why in movies you never see them use the restroom???
hello its 9 pm and i'm post this time i'm not in a rush unlike last time when my sister comes home at midnight and tells me to get off. grr. well sometimes we are reminded all to well what its like to lose someone when you see a "show" that has on it the ways you've dealt with things. if you get my drift. today i watched a show call the "The Real World" and this chick Frankie cuts herslef. it made me realize that thats just me but older for real though. i know you might not see the cuts and that is because i hide them. i don't want people passing judgement on me so that is why i don't talk about it. anyways...today i found out that i'm never "watching" another 12 yr.old again. oh my gosh i thought i was going to die. it is so wet down here in [u][b]bfe[/b][/u]. its rained since yesterday. it sucks so bad. Tonight while reading Mrs. Garton's blog i got really sad. Mr. Garton's daughter got hit by a car friday. She is fine, but still my symphaty goes out to her. well i'm not going to type alot tonight but i am going to ask a question. [b]1.[/b] while trying to find something out today i ran across something i didn't want to know, but what my question is: Why must a "love one" lie to you to make sure that you don't find out what you were thinking was true all along? well there is more behind this story and when i feel the time is right i will discuse with you its imporantce. well for now have a [u][b]HAPPY EASTER[/b][/u] ttyl
well i'm blogging at 12:06 P.M. late for some and early for most. well i'm just out to see what a great day is ahead of me. well that sentance didn't make alot of since but oh well right. well my sister gets off work at 10:30 and she still isn't home and i'm kinda worried. i know for some its like why worry but i do. well i'm talkin to this really sweet guy that i've seemed to have alot in common with and its cool. well i'm not trying to brag but i'm sure someone will say i am but my mom got onto the school borad down where i live and i'm happy for her though many aren't. eh fuck them if they can't be happy for her. thats what i say. so i wonder if there is a way to be to blunt about some stuff? i think i've pasted the line if there is. well i have to cut it short becaue my sister is being a bitch and telling to get off so she can get a phone call from fuck head that i hate. so no question.. later tatters, (happy birhday mama tots)
Hello, to all you friends out there. i know i haven't bloged in a long time but i thought i would because i got some thing from tblog tell me that i needed to post so i am. i want to let you know that my arms are so burnt. they hurt really bad. i didn't go to school friday, because i was sick and my dad and i built my rube-goldberg project thrusday night and it so freaking cool. mom and amber went up north to see if amber gets accepted intoa summer college. speaking of college my friend Melissa is going to Purdue for a college thing. i found out from my mother. she was all do you know some melissa girl thats a freshman that is going to Purdue, and i just looked at her then i read her blog and i found out. i'm so proud of her. she is really smart. we are supposed be going to church but mom and dad are in the hot tube and amber and char. are in bed. well i spent all weekend with my dad and it wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. i thought we would fight the whole time, because we do not get along for anything most of the time, and so i was all ok this is goin to suck so bad, but i didn't. we spent time with the friends and it was cool. my little cousin Kylee turned 5 on saturday and we went to her birthday party. it was so fun. i spent most of my time with Steven and David. i jumped on the trampoline with kylee and mikie. me and aaron watched ok state play and then we all went out on the four-wheelers and the mule and road in the back of there house properity. it was a blast. my little cousin Peyton has chicken pox and he just looks at me and says bubby my back hurts and i'm all it'll be ok. its kinda sad becuase now he chicken pox and likes to ich. he'll be better. well there was a lot of sun out on friday. i'm starting to ramble on. so i'm going to ask my all time question. *1. why when you meet someone they act all into you and stuff but then as time goes on they become rude and don't return your phone calls but yet they are the one who tells you to call? is it my fault or what? well i'm done for now i'm goin to try to post more so...later l8er, [b][u][i]Heather[/i][/u][ /b] :D
well today is march 16 at 8:37 PM and its a friends birthday he truned 17. he is 2 weeks younger than my sister. well i have an appolige to make and here it goes.. kayla Vestal i want to say that i'm sorry if i pissed you off and i didn't mean to make you mad at me. your one of my true friends and i don't like it you being mad at me so i hope that you can forgive. well ok we have this student teacher at school in my 3rd hour and i'm like IN LOVE with this guy. he is so hot in the nerdy way but oh well. pluses: cute eyes, great hair, smells good, and nice. minus: Teacher kinda, to old for me, and i bet he has a girlfriend/ wife? :( but i can still admire from afar. well a couple of my friends think the same about him so i'm not the only one.. 3 questions to think of today. 1. why do people argue with someone over the internet that they don't know? its not like they know you. 2. why do people take things so serious? i'm not a kider all the time but i don't like to look at things from a serious veiw is that so wrong? 3. why do i feel like i'm goin to fall becuase my knees are weak when Joshua is around? kinda creepy eh.. or as i wold usely say ace.. hick oh man i'm a hick. oh bye the way i know i will never get a time of day from the Student Teacher. darn.. oh well
hey..well today there is supposed to be a big ass snow storm. i'm really happy becasue i'm happy. well i'm trying to slove all the problems between me and people! well i'm really kinda tired of some people. they are pretending to be someone else that i know for a fact that they aren't! well i'm not quite done but i'm tired so bye.
well today i'm sitting in school in math and i realized why i hate school so much. its so boring..well tonight is friday and i'm goin to a party and goin to gett shit faced and forget my problems..well i'm only posting a lil..well got to go..leave a comment if you want
well today i found that i do have a friend or maybe 2 that truly know me..they know they sad and depressed girl not the one i put on. i guess i would know say that those people you know who you are one from school and one not (way way up north over the US line)..well i don't want to sound like a baby but when i get upset i get really upset and it don't help that i don't talk about it and when i do it really gets to me..i get really upset.. a dear friend wrote me the most beautiful poem.. i'm sure you may think its gay but i love it and it means alot to me and the person that wrote it did a wonderful job and i want him to know i really do apprciate it.. i know i've thanked you but i don't think i can thank you enough.. i'm feeling lonely tonight and i don't know why..i have my friends and my cat(stupid thing) and my music but thats not enough today for some reason i can't get myself to be happy today..i was happy well i as happy as you can get being depressed right. well i guess i will post the beautiful poem he wrote:
Thank You Thursday 01.29.04 [8:28 pm]
Hey again people ... here's another poem ... this one i wrote in a really short time...so hope it lives up the expectations and doesn't suck ... this ones for you Heather .. hope you enjoy it
Thank you
Thank you for your friendship, Thank you for being kind, Thank you so very much, For saying what's on your mind.
Thank you for the time, Thank you for your song, Thank you so respectfully, For admitting when you're wrong.
Thank you just because, Thank you for your strength, Thank you a million times, For letting me go on at length
Thank you for inspiration, Thank you for respect, Thank you every day, For not knowing what to expect.
Thank you for not being cocky, Thank you for being wise, Thank you for the bluntness, And telling it right between the eyes.
Thank you for being funny, Thank you for your core, Thank you for letting me be here, For when you need and more.
Thank you for being smart, Thank you for pitying the shrew, Thank you most of all, For being the truest shade of blue (For just being you)
i really do apprciate it..thanks again..addicted2u you got a wonderful bf..
I adopted a cute lil' poison fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
Staring out the Window
by: Heather Kelso
Staring out the window
Wondering where you are today
I'm sitting in class
Lost in teh memory of our love or friendship
Is it love or merely a friendship
I'm truly confused on what to say to you
should i say that i love you
or should i say goodbye
sometimes i want to call and confess my true feelings
I'm merely afraid of loosing what we have
or finally seeing what
we never had.
